Jumping back into the fire

Well, my first week back was hard…really hard trying to catch up with work and clients and everything a mom needs to catch up on. I am struggling finding any balance at all. I thought Hawaii would give me that perspective, that I need to find and maintain balance, but I’m just not finding it yet. It feels like I’ve been sprayed all week with a fire hose of work and expectations.

I am out of balance.

I need to find some balance so I can be more for my kids. I had a client give me 30 hours of work in a 3 day work week and I hit a point where I panicked Thursday night knowing I had to drop six other people’s things for this one client. I started to feel like a failure.

I know I can’t do it all and it’s okay to drop some things or move some things off my list to other days, but I didn’t realize I would come back to so much overwhelm.

After this project is over, I need to get my life organized and balanced for sure so that I can be the mother, girlfriend and friend people need me to be. I am always in survival mode and I don’t quite get how to get out of it quite yet.

I need to reprioritize things in my life.